So even though 2010 has been pretty tough...it has also been pretty wonderful. It was actually probably the biggest year for me learning wise. I have learned so much about myself-the kind of person that I am, as well as other people-who I want to surround myself with. I haven't felt more like myself than I have in these past few months and I love how everyday that feeling just keeps growing stronger.
I can't wait for 2011 to come. I think it's time to move forward. I will miss everything that this year has brought me but I'm excited for the unknown to unravel with time.
I just decided that I want my New Years resolution to be something along the lines of eliminating all negative thoughts whenever they hit the surface. Hopefully I'll stick to it as much as possible.
Happy New Years with peace and love :)

Polaroid scans

Second last day of the year spent with my two favourite people :)

I have no idea exactly how much time I just spent reading but what I do know is that I read about seventy pages. It feels like about half an hour has passed to me but when I first started the sky was blue, it now looks black. Time flies when you're having fun!

Truest of trues

"There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under my jurisdiction. There are certain lottery tickets I can buy, thereby increasing my odds of finding contentment. I can decide how I want to spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I eat and read and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities (and on the occasions where I can't rise to the most optimistic viewpoint, because I'm feeling too damn sorry for myself, I can choose to keep trying to change my outlook). I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts."

“It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.”

I've always loved Christmas eve. I don't know if it's because of all the anticipation that has been leading up to the day ahead or because all the frantic chasing has disappeared. Either way, for this one night everything runs in slow motion and it's definitely something worth taking notice of.

Working in retail during the Christmas season can sometimes make you feel as if you are on the verge of insanity. It can completely drive you to resenting Christmas and every little thing derived from it. I've been saying to others that I feel like Christmas can sometimes bring out the worst in people.
I was serving a lady and her two sons when, she told me that they had just picked up her husband from the hospital today and that he was very sick. She told me that him coming home was all that they wanted for Christmas and they were very thankful. I think moments like these really put things into perspective when your outlook on things have been contaminated by trivial nonsense that doesn't even deserve a second thought or contemplation. You only have one life so live it and stop complaining when you have so much to be thankful for :)

Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

There is something so peaceful about driving home in the middle of the night with rain ceaselessly pouring down your windscreen hindering your vision and being the only car in sight. It kind of feels like you're the only person left in the world.

Can't get enough

I've always loved this quote :)

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe

A'men to this

"If I think more about death than some other people, it is probably because I Iove life more than they do"

I've decided everything gets better if you're willing to change.

I feel like I am looking at my life through new eyes today, eyes that don't distort the truth but overtly present it in a broader context.