Lucas: Know any good jokes?
Brooke: You're looking at one. Why does everybody lie? You know, the bad guys lie to get in your bed. And the good guys lie to get in your heart. And I'm the idiot that falls for it every time.
Lucas: Hey... Brooke, you are not an idiot. Not even close. You know who you are. Most people don't, you know. I mean, that's why they lie. They're afraid people might find out who they are before they figure it out themselves.

For the people I love; I would do ANYTHING.

It's funny, when something bad happens in someone's life it is then that they gain a kind of new perspective on things. People have been saying this to me for the past two weeks. For me it's bullshit. Every single day I have that same feeling, that same perspective. The thought that death can just fly by unexpectedly at any given moment. The same apathetic view towards all things small that wouldn't matter if I was dying at this very moment. I think like this every single day, it doesn't take something bad to happen in my life for me to wake up. I am already so fucking awake. It takes something bad in my life to only reinforce the fact that I feel so differently to people. No matter what happens, I always feel so different. This year I've learned to love that about myself instead of resent it. Life is what you make it. One day I know I'll find someone who believes that with everything they're made of. I'm never left feeling alone because I always have my hope.

It's so nice to know that all the hard work has finally paid off :)

I'm sick of the arguing. I don't understand why you don't change, after all these years you just continue to disappoint me.

All I've ever wanted is for you to love us enough to change.

The only person you can rely on is yourself.
The only person you can rely on is yourself.

Thanks Sara :)

These days consist of back and forth hospital sessions/a mountain hight of untouched uni assignments/work, and through it all I feel so thankful and grateful about the good things I have with me.
I'm on a mission baby. You'll see. When I'm done changing my world, I'll move on to the broader spectrum.

Wow you're beautiful.

When things get to the point where it's a matter of life and death, nothing else really seems to matter.
I can't believe how easy it is for something to change.

I don't want to talk to anyone who speaks shit as a first language. I don't want anyone in my life who is just going to up and leave when they've had enough. I don't want to be associated with negative people who suck the life out of any given situation.
I want to hold on to people that inspire me.

I love that I actually get to research Gerard Way for an assignment :D

I wonder if there are any songs out there that remind people of me. I have so many that remind me of so many people who were once in my life, still a part of my life and well...those that I am yet to meet.

Elizabeth and I

After a one hour work out :P

All I want is a place to call my own,
To mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone
Whoa
You know to keep your hopes up high and your head down low
Keep your hopes up high and your head down low

I miss our hourly chats over Indian food that burnt our throats.

When I stop to think about how many people in my life, friends...family...whoever REALLY know me, I mean really really know me, I'm unfortunately left with not even a handful.

I JUST WANT TO LIVE RIGHT NOW.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I EVER WASTED EVEN A MILLISECOND OF ANY MOMENT ON ANYTHING OR ANYONE REMOTELY UNDESERVING TO PUT IT PLAIN AND SIMPLY.
YOU AREN'T WORTH SHIT.

I can't wait to ACTUALLY focus everything I'm made of on people that truly matter and things that truly mean something to me.

Goodbye any negative thoughts I've had in the past few days, the past weeks, the past months or the past fucking year.

Seriously, I'm doing what I want to do, REGARDLESS.

:) So fulfilled.

I feel like being away, not because I'm wanting to escape anything here but just because I'm wanting something fresh to drift into my life.

Cannot WAIT to hear this song live tomorrow night :D

Mel you look out-of-this-world beautiful here.

Confession # 43850943785094783985

I can't wait to fall in love again.

What's the point in not doing what you REALLY want to do?

I need something.

They all come crawling back and it's too fucking late :)

I love my two sisters :)

Some things to ponder over

If right now, at this very moment your life flashed right before your eyes would you be happy with the person that you would see?
Can you say that you are entirely and completely happy with your existence and everything you have done up until this very moment?
Are you learning from your mistakes and moving forward or simply losing yourself in your despair and apathies?
What did you think of when your head hits the pillow before your eyes begin to shut each night?
Do your thoughts eat away at you?
Do you dream? When you are asleep and in your waking world?
Are you one to believe in regrets?
Would you change anything about yourself?
What truly matters to you?
What are you hiding behind?
Can you genuinely say you believe you are a decent person?

I can't believe I was in Bendigo this morning, it feels so much further away. I miss it.

"This Is The House That Doubt Built"

Don't get me started on what it means to be alive
You're lying to yourself and yet still you act surprised
Cause you're scared and can't come to terms with what you are
The wolves in sheep's clothing will only lead you so far
You'll wait and they'll go cause in the end we all end up alone so just wait you'll know

Forget everything just for tonight we'll sing like everyone when they're alone
Cause I've been waiting for tonight to sing whoa, whoa

I rely on myself just making sure that was clear I'm not in need of your crutches
I've faced all my fears and I won what I knew I could have
Life is not a punch card make the best of what you have

But don't wait just go
And when you find yourself please let me know
It's not too late just let go

Forget everything just for tonight we'll sing like everyone when they're alone
Cause I've been waiting for tonight to sing whoa, whoa

Let's believe that if we all stand together we're a force that can shake the whole world
For once we're doing something right when we sing whoa, whoa

In the end it's not about what you have
In the end it's all about where you wanna go
And the roads you take to help you get there I hope you think that's fair

Cause you've only got one life to lead so don't take for granted those little things
Those little things are all that we have

Forget everything just for tonight we'll sing like everyone when they're alone
Cause I've been waiting for tonight to sing whoa, whoa

Let's believe that if we all stand together we're a force that can shake the whole world
For once we're doing something right when we sing whoa, whoa

(I say whoa whoa whoa whoa)

Can't forget everything

Cause I've been waiting for tonight to sing whoa, whoa