No one said it would be easy

I'm learning to separate the copper from the gold.

PostSecret

I felt like posting some of mine that I have been keeping to myself for maybe a day, or maybe even a while now...

*I really do think you are amazing...I don't just talk to you in times of doubt.
*I do love you, but I don't know if I'm strong enough to ever forgive you or let go of the past.
*I was the happiest I had ever been when I was with you.
*I feel like I'm caught in the middle sometimes.
*One day I hope to have it in me to be as loving and as giving as you are.
*I wish I had some sort of obvious talent.
*When I said it was really nice to meet you, I meant it so much.
*I saw a different side to you when you told me things you said you hadn't told anyone else.
*Sometimes you really disgust me, but that's no secret.
*When you give me money, it sometimes feels like you're showing me that you care and I like the gesture.
*I'm starting to find you pretty awesome.
*I don't want to be afraid anymore.
*I hope you're not lying to us both.
*Walking into those rooms won't ever be the same again.
*It's getting easier to fall asleep.
*You didn't have to stop replying.
*I don't know why but I kept that heart shaped thing you gave me.
*I will never understand why people have to lie.
*Sometimes, I secretly hope you are unhappy so you can see what it's like.
*I hate that my stomach just turned.
*One day I will be more successful than you are and I'll ask you then if you're happy with your fucking job.
*Inspiration has a way of finding me.
*When I hear a cliche love song, I get a little mad inside.
*I kind of like it that you're stoned half the time, makes it easier for me to forget the idea of you.

It's a new day

It hasn't felt like one for a while but today is really different and I'm glad :)

And don't speak

Sometimes I just want the whole world to disappear.

Perfection in a paragraph

"There's only so many times you can allow someone to let you down before you can't handle the disappointment anymore. When things change people change & it doesn't mean you forget the past, it simply means you try to move on & treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting things that weren't meant to be. There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. You got to do what's right for you even if it hurts."

You're staring truth in the face

What the hell is wrong with me,
This doesn't even make me happy.

Carter Hulsey

Check out his new song up on myspace :)

I keep listening to this on repeat...

Go Radio - Why I'm Home

I paint you pictures all night long
And tell you tales of our every song
And let you know that you're the reason why I'm home
Or I could quote a page of poetry
Show you all you mean to me
And we'd go falling somewhere faster
Knowing we don't want to ever fall at all
Just don't think that this will be easy
Saying that you love me
Lying tongues are clumsy
And don't speak when one more word would kill me
Saying that you love me
Lying tongues are clumsy
But who am I to say
That every breath we take
Won't be another pointless kiss
We gave away
When what we love we burn
Is from the ashes we all yearn
To be the phoenix that rises up from the flames
And don't think that this will be easy
Saying that you love me
Lying tongues are clumsy
And don't speak
When one more word would kill me
Saying that you love me proves
Lying tongues are clumsy
Don't think that this will be easy
Saying that you love me
Lying tongues are clumsy
And don't speak when one more word would kill me
Saying that you love me
When lying tongues are clumsy
I paint you pictures all night long
And tell you tales how every song
And let you know that you're the reason why I'm home

:)

Never fails to make me smile.

Cave

“Nostalgia is a seductive liar.”

Nevershoutnever

Listening to it right now :)

This time baby...

Apparently people come back to confuse the shit out of you.

nevershoutnever

dare4distance

Like Peyton said

'People always leave', but sometimes they come back and it's a mystery to me as to whether they are back to stay, or back to simply leave again.

It'd be nice

if someone didn't give up on me for a change.

Exactly so

This week

You are my weakness, I admit it. But she is yours.

Dream car

Lets be plastic dolls for just one day, we know that we don't need these emotions anyway

I love how your day can be made in just a couple of seconds!! :D

If timings everything stop telling me you're taking your time

I've only ever reached true happiness a few times in life. Each time, on a different occasion, a different day, a different mentality. Now that I look back on these times, I feel the nostalgia hit me so hard. I think that it's time to do some cleaning.

If you're unhappy about something in life it is easier said than done to change what you're unhappy about, but then again that's where the whole 'actions speak louder than words' phrase comes into play. If you're unhappy stop verbalizing your unhappiness and fix it, eliminate it, change it. There are different ways around a problem and if you're strong enough to let something go, or completely deal with it then you are one step closer to reaching your true happiness.

Let it go let it go

I miss so many people right now.

Especially one person. I wish we could just go back to when we were kids, when you were still on this earth. I can't even think about any of that right now. I just don't understand.

Seven Pounds

Thanks to Mel :) I saw this movie, everyone should see it.



& I just read this and liked it:

“You cannot live on other people's promises, but if you promise others enough, you can live on your own.”

Raised by the bastards of 1969

I just got back from Mount Martha and although I wasn't away for that long, I have come home with a really great fresh perspective. I decided that I'm going to try and do at least one productive thing each day this year. I decided that this whole not caring about things that don't really matter thing is amazing and that this year is going to be one that I make even more memorable than the last.

I wonder how that will turn out. Having high hopes and dreams can lead to positive things. I just have to make sure that reality doesn't destroy me.

On a different note, this year, right now, I'm going to spend a lot of my time and energy on the people that matter the most to me. I promise to spend the rest of my life showing you all how much I really care.

Ciao xo

Breathe

Nothing even remotely matters.

Wow

I'm making this my goal for the year 2010, for right now!

http://communityofchange.blogspot.com/2010/01/we-have-choice-every-day-regarding.html

Welcome

This year is going to be about not caring and just simply living.