2:28 am

It's kind of late, I have to be up for work in about 5 hours and I'm dreading it. I don't want to sleep because the sooner I sleep then the sooner it is tomorrow and I'm somewhat satisfied with this present moment. Everyone is asleep, my house is dead quiet. All I can hear are the thoughts relentlessly lingering in my mind. I wonder what it would be like if we didn't have that one voice guiding us through our contemplations. Anyway I don't even know what I'm going on about right now or where my mind is drifting to. I'm thinking about so much. As usual, the past has made an appearance about 30 or more times today. My eyes really hurt and I kind of feel like staying up all night and dnming with someone about life, mainly it's hard times because I need some inspiration. I need to think about the tragic for the pleasant to exist but it needs to be done in a way that leaves me feeling grateful and optimistic not hopeless. This probably makes zero sense. I should probably sleep, okay goodnight.