All people should ever want from others is PURE HAPPINESS, LOVE AND LIGHT

It's crazy, my whole entire life I have rattled my brain dealing with the concept of solitude and what it truly feels like to be alone. I spent many sleepless nights battling this idea, the inept feeling of pure loneliness as a teenager that it nearly became the death of me. As I grew I began to let it go and created a sort of coven so to speak of friends who eliminated this feeling for a while. Honestly, I would still ponder that idea if it weren't for the spiritual teachings that have been brought forward to me. However, although I am not alone, I still feel a kind of segregation which divides me from many. It's crazy to say that ever since I picked up and Eckhart Tolle book that my whole entire perceptions were met and fulfilled. I have never felt the intense superstition that somehow a book was written solely for my learning. This book has really opened my eyes and confirmed the idea of pure consciousness. Just by recognizing everything this book refers to about unconscious living and ego control is an uncanny experience. But that's their learning so who am I to judge. You can't take what people do in THEIR lives personally, my mum has always told me that. Just as how you don't owe anyone an explanation. Something that has really stuck into my mind is the fact that you can't always please people, there will always be an unhappy soldier in the battle so why not do what is right for you and be happy in the process of living.

I feel obliged to make the obvious comment that we are not here to please others. I don't give a shit about what anyone else is doing so why the hell should they be focusing so much of their precious time on me? I do not appreciate it when people project their own insecurities upon me, and create a kind of fantasy reality as to how I have been living MY life (they forget that part because apparently they have so much to say about someone else's life because their's is perfecto). I am here to make a difference and to always be a good loving person full of light. Everything that I do will always be out of love. If they can't see that then they are clearly blind to me, and they don't know me. You'd be surprised how many people who are supposedly supposed to care about me don't know the first thing about me or how I live my life. I would NEVER purposely do anything to hurt anyone, even someone I COMPLETELY did not like. I can't even use the word hate because I feel bad. Here I go explaining myself, I suppose I am offering these words as a solution to any negative thoughts, not an undeserved explanation. I will always work towards bettering my life and growing as a person in every dimension of my being. More so, I will consciously decide to leave all negativity behind, and if for some reason I am feeling down, I will continue to persevere. I don't know if many people contemplate about what they are doing on this planet but I think about it every fucking day. I try to do something good each day, and I have been blessed to have a mum who has taught me so much about self respect, pride and staying true to myself that I will choose to dictate my life, not anyone else. If people decide that isn't good enough for them then so be it. I can read people's energies and I know when people have a problem with me, to be honest I don't care.

I can see how a good mood effects people, for better or worse. A good mood is contagious, and sometimes when a person is lost they can't handle it. They can't handle the light when they're stuck in a place so dark. It disappoints me to think that they have lowered themselves to that level. Especially people you felt you could count on entirely. It's true when they say "the only person you can rely on is yourself". Mum has always taught me to stay true to myself and hell why should someone change to suit another person. We aren't living their lives. Lately I have found myself feeling so disappointed with people that I let it consume me at some stage. WRONG DECISION THERE. We were all put on this planet to make a difference and I only do things that will help me grow and keep me fresh, oh so happy as Larry. I have no idea why I would ever suddenly be classified as a villain for staying true to how I feel I should live my life.

I don't know why I felt the need to express this idea but I just feel like there are so many people out there who are not being true to who they are and are not listening to what their true desires. They need to stand up for their beliefs and stand up for who they are. Just because the majority of people are doing things a certain way, does NOT mean it is necessarily the right way. If people refuse to like me for any reason, they are obviously the ones with the issues because from the bottom of my heart I am telling you all now that I come from a place of light and love.

I write these words in hope of activating a kind of spark in my reader because the time that we waste here thinking so negatively, is time we could have spent changing lives, making a difference to people and just plain and simply being happy.This has always been my mission and I plan to exceed it to its limit regardless of how many times people put me down or for some god forsaken reason have some kind of FANTASTIC comment to spread about me.