blazeanewtrail

Today has been a very big eye opener. I have seen what money and greed can do to someone and I refuse to ever sell my soul to work for anyone like this. I don't need money enough to work at a negative workplace run by a negative man which will only cause me unhappiness. It simply isn't worth it, especially because my current two jobs come with quite a bit of happiness. I don't care if I can't afford to buy new clothes every week, or if I can't afford to travel anywhere for more than a couple of nights. I am happy and that's all that matters. Life is about being happy in every situation regardless of what you own or where you are, those things are a bonus. But to give up my sense of happiness and satisfaction for "things" that are proven to be ever so temporary, that would be the end of me. I don't care if I have a million dollars or one dollar in my fucking bank account. I should feel the same amount of happiness because happiness is internal. When you realize you don't need things from the external world to fulfil your life or to identify yourself with then you won't go searching for situations to put yourself in which will continue to fossil this concept. All I need is my health, people who inspire me, and enough money to get me through the day and to provide myself with such "luxuries" like eating out or going on an exciting day trip and I will be happy. Even if I was living on the street and I know it's easy to say now but honestly I never want to turn into someone who has connected their will to live with their ability to make more and more money. LIFE IS NOT JUST ABOUT WORKING. I can't handle people who live like this. I don't understand the whole "my life will be better when I buy this or go here or have x amount of money or get this job". I really don't understand buying happiness I'll tell you that now.