2:28 am

It's kind of late, I have to be up for work in about 5 hours and I'm dreading it. I don't want to sleep because the sooner I sleep then the sooner it is tomorrow and I'm somewhat satisfied with this present moment. Everyone is asleep, my house is dead quiet. All I can hear are the thoughts relentlessly lingering in my mind. I wonder what it would be like if we didn't have that one voice guiding us through our contemplations. Anyway I don't even know what I'm going on about right now or where my mind is drifting to. I'm thinking about so much. As usual, the past has made an appearance about 30 or more times today. My eyes really hurt and I kind of feel like staying up all night and dnming with someone about life, mainly it's hard times because I need some inspiration. I need to think about the tragic for the pleasant to exist but it needs to be done in a way that leaves me feeling grateful and optimistic not hopeless. This probably makes zero sense. I should probably sleep, okay goodnight.

There's eyeliner in my eyes and it really hurts

It's been so hard for me to let go of the past, so hard for me to try and pretend that I don't feel a certain way but today that kind of changed. Today something happened that made me realize that you really aren't that great for me and that I'm just simply holding onto false memories that are to never repeat themselves. Today, for the first time in a while, I genuinely didn't miss you.

Tell me when this song is gonna end

I feel like being more private, from everyone.

Let me personalize this

One day

When one day comes, I will welcome it with open arms.

Every action in this world will bear a consequence

Ask yourself why.

IT'S FEBRUARY!!

Welcome fresh new month, I hope it's a good one :)