Where do you find inspiration?

I think I might write some of my story that's due soon. I have work in an hour but I feel like writing, and I hardly feel like writing these days. I guess it's because lately I haven't been so grounded but hey I've loved that. Lately has been fucking awesome. I guess I shouldn't necessarily like the fact that I feel like writing even though I feel inspired. When I feel this way, it's not always such a positive feeling. But that's reality for you right there. This is real. I have come down to earth today and I can't really say I'm content or complacent...I feel a bit lost. I feel a bit happy. I feel a bit neglected. I feel a bit thankful. I'm a whole lot of things right now but I am mostly stable and realistic. I know where I am right now but I kind of wish I was still ignorant and hopeful. Although I hate ignorance. There's still plenty of hope left but it isn't clouded by my ideals.

:)

I like doing this :)

I need to study

I have a test tomorrow, and I have done shit all. I have a story to write, and I have written one sentence. None of this seems to matter.

Yay

Today I've been listening to the same song on repeat :) I LOVE when a song has that type of effect on me.
Anyways, someone should buy me this green tea version of kitkat. I'll love you forever and ever if you do :)

Eyes wide open

I don't understand how you would do anything for people and that just apparently isn't a mutual agreement. It's just a disappointment, I don't know. I just don't know anything right now but I'm happy and I'm trying, and I can't stand it when that is left out of the equation. How am I supposed to take chances and live my life the way I want to if I am restricted? I just don't understand why all these small things have to matter. Nothing like that fucking matters. Also you can't have it both ways. You can't be my friend then suddenly decide to have a role change. I wish you could just see things through my eyes because you're the last person I want to be disappointed with.

:S

I feel so fucking sick.

Think about it

Last night I was up and awake in the middle of the night like I usually am and I thought of something. In song lyrics why is this always a specific well known cliche phrase? Something like 'my heart beats for you' or whatever. You could create a heap of different sentences with that same meaning, but I was just wondering why isn't it ever something like 'my brain sends electromagnetic energy out for you' or 'these neurotransmitters transmit messages around my body for you' hahaha. Those phrases are just plain stupid altogether.

I'm in such a blog posting mood today

I can't express my love for this guy, I swear he is inspiration walking, or sitting in this video :P

It's weird

Sometimes it makes me happy listening to really sad songs, or maybe the right word is content.

CINEMATIC SUNRISE LYRICS
"You Told Me You Loved Me"

You said you loved me
More than anyone else could ever know
But now you're leaving
Can't we just try to work this out
And I've never been one to beg

The nights get lonely
And all I have left is a memory of you
I tried to say this
But now there's nothing left for me to do
And I've never been one to beg

Please don't go, just stay
I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away
Miss your voice, and your touch
And if I told you I loved you could that be enough?

An awkward silence
It's been too long since I've heard from you
And I lay sleepless
Knowing that my heart still belongs to you
And I've never been one to beg

Please don't go, just stay
I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away
Miss your voice, and your touch
And if I told you I loved you could that be enough?

Please don't go, just stay
I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away
Miss your voice, and your touch
And if I told you I loved you could that be enough?

And tonight I'll stay home and miss you more than you'll ever know
And tonight I'll stay home and miss you more than you'll ever know
And tonight I'll stay home and miss you more than you'll ever know
And tonight I'll stay home and miss you more than you'll ever know

It's a new day

And what am I going to do with myself? I woke up today feeling really fresh and calm about everything. The one thing that I thought would bother me, doesn't right now. I actually feel like doing homework and cleaning my room. What the hell is wrong with me? I really like it though :) Usually when I feel like this, it's because of something that has happened, or someone who has changed my mood, but today it's all because of me...for the first time in a long time. Bring on the world today.

Last and least

Today is the last day of the week, I can't wait for it to be over :)

<333

I had THE MOST AMAZING noodles with Sara today :)



Much love to Sara for some great taste in food and a well needed d&m.

I swear this time I mean it

A time for some favourites.

Inspiration

Uplifting

My cousin is going to be one hell of an artist someday :P

Idiot

Maybe I'm not so foolish after all? Maybe I'm once again trying to find all these excuses to stop myself from being happy because I'm afraid of something...I don't know.

Ignorant

It's all in my fucking head, how could I be so foolish?

For the rest

I'm whistling these days, something is going right.

I love my sisters

Not much has changed all these years.

So bizarre

I woke up today, watched about 3 hours of TV and thought about how lame my day was. I then decided to change that...
I went outside and sat for a bit on the grass to clear my head, went upstairs and listened to some tunes, went downstairs and ironed some clothes, went to the laundry and hand washed some of my clothes, went outside and hung out my freshly washed clothes, made myself a delicious veggie pizza, sat down, wasted time for a few hours, got a text from a friend wanting to chill, went to McCafe and drove home. That is not how I had imagined my day to turn out. I love being productive :)

You know

Even cats can have bad angles :P My boy doesn't normally look like a ball of fluff but here you go :)



Take me here?

Slow Dance

I remember I found this poem a few years ago and thought it was amazing. I just found out now that it was written by a teenager suffering from cancer.

Have you ever watched kids On a merry-go-round? Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down..

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift.....Thrown away.

Life is not a race.Do take it slower

Hear the music Before the song is over.

Exactly what this year has been about, amazing

“May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can have. As we value our happiness let us not forget it, for one of the greatest lessons in life is learning to be happy without the things we cannot or should not have.”
-Richard L. Evans

We sometimes quit even before we start

It strikes me as foolish when people voice certain beliefs and don't follow them up with actions. Maybe one day I'll tell you that I have dreams of joining the circus and never go through with it, or that I plan to touch the sky tomorrow morning with my two bare hands. Would you believe me just because I said it? Would you be disappointed in me because I never wholeheartedly meant it?

:) I will smile

I love how right now parts of my past have come back into my life and are existing cohesively. I don't like how parts of my present and future confuse me though.

Mayday Parade; you will be the death of me

Hello October

September ended with a perfect day. October started with some lovely first hours even if they aren't to repeat themselves, they still existed :)