Jarrod Gorbel you are completely comforting right now. Your music is art.

My current playlist

1. Frame By Frame - The Honorary Title
2. Time Goes By - Air Traffic
3. A Vespertine Haunting - Alive In Wild Paint
4. We Did It When We Were Young - The Gaslight Anthem
5. Sweet And Low - Augustana
6. I Can Feel Your Pain - Manchester Orchestra
7. This Shit Gets Old - Never Shout Never
8. Something Beautiful - Needtobreathe

Home is where the heart is

I love driving for hours through foreign places. I feel a little refreshed. I'm comforted by the fact that no one in these places knows anything about me. I feel like a blank slate, an unwritten book even. I could be completely anyone in this world to any one of these people. They could be the same to me.
All we are together are unmarked souls wandering the earth. All I am is but a ghost driving through these unfamiliar gates that somehow make me feel as if I am something different.
I can't take a hold of these new atmospheres because my mind is elsewhere and I am left vacant. Although everything looks different, inside I am the same.
What's the point in driving around so much when it doesn't change a single thing about anything.
You'll find peace for a fleeting moment only before the old wind flies through you just as it did back home. However home has been such an argued term in my reality lately.

Paris was a dream, but you were an even bigger one.
Where to now?

I could not care less about this assignment right now.
I just want to drive away from here and get away from everything.
My head is filled with far too many thoughts, thoughts that I can't fix.

I have to believe or else my life is worth nothing.

I wish I had freckles all over my face.

'They never said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it'

In the midst of sorrow you will see people for what they truly are.
Their facades are broken.

Remember that.

"Passion unattended is a flame that burns to its own destruction"

We all bleed the same way as you do.

Some old snaps of mine

Take off my make up and clean my mind blind.

For you.

Yesterday I was talking to a good friend of mine, and I remember saying that all I have heard about lately are the down sides of people's lives. I couldn't understand why there wasn't any good happening. On the way home just now I realized that was only because none of these people (including me) have been focusing on the positives. I hate how our negative thoughts consume us, and take over us some times and I refuse to let them defeat me or define me.
Anyways here are some of my positive thoughts for the day that I definitely won't neglect.

I'm not invincible. No one is, and that's okay with me tonight.
My friends surprise me with just how caring they are. You all are amazing and it's so nice to know I can count on you so thank you.
I attempted to jump to the other side of a miniature river coming from the ocean yesterday and landed in the actual water in my shoes and stockings. It was the most alive I have felt all week.
Tonight my best friends and I drove around singing rap music at the top of our lungs with a massive cardboard cut out Christmas tree sticking out of the window. It made my day.

Finally I get this feeling we are all alone in one big world
Just to realize that all these shapes and colors are so it doesn't hurt so badly..

So life doesn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly..
So life doesn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly..
Please don't look at life, look at me so sadly.
Life shouldn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly

Angels & Airwaves

Hey Mel you were right, they are perfect.

The moon you've felt, it has no side
That's dark like hell, or safe from light
Just blown apart, by wind from stars
With white dust tides to pull on ours

'Even the best fall down sometimes, even the stars refuse to shine'

Augustana, you fucking inspire me.

Wow

'You do not have to be angry, just because you have the right to be angry'

This is your life, surrounded by your choices, your decisions.
If you are unhappy or don't like something, change it or erase it.
It's strictly up to you to pave a new path, or to blaze a new trail. It's up to you to choose what kind of people you want with you in your life.
You hold the power in your bear hands, it's as simple as that. Sometimes we forget how strong we are when life happens but it's up to us to remember that we have choices.
It's as simple as that.

Why can't music like this exist today?

Moving mountains

I don't think you were the only one that left this world that night.

Two years has come all too soon my dear xo

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

Some day

Beauty really is where you least expect it. I learnt that last night.
I also learnt that everyone has a story and if they decide to tell you theirs then you are a very lucky person.

There's so much that I want to say...that all keeps falling on deaf ears.

Don't you know who you are
You're my shooting star

There I was standing completely in awe of this band that I was watching live for the first time. It was at that moment that I remembered how it felt to truly feel alive. I felt that song fly through me like a million winds.
This is what it's all about.
My fifteen year old self was right about one thing.
Music saves lives.
I can't even count how many times it has saved mine.

Today was completely and utterly a beautiful day :)

This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

It's hard. I tell myself I miss those times where I felt completely independent, but there was always something missing in my life back then...

Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end

I love you mum, you're the most remarkable woman I know.

Wonderful tunes

I never want to sleep, ever.

I wanted to tell you that the lake was full of water the last time I went there...I wonder if you're ever walking by.

Life is about being spontaneous. It's about staying up late when you have work the next morning. It's about drinking too much and paying for it the next morning. It's about kissing in the rain. It's about singing crazy songs with your best friends at the top of your lungs down the street at all hours of the night. It's about doing something that scares you once in a while. It's about saying the truth even if you'll be hated because of it. It's about driving for hours with your music up full blast. It's about eating so much that you can't move. It's about falling passionately in love. It's about spending your hard works pay and being broke for the rest of the week. Life is what you find special in all of the simplicity around you.

And at the blink of an eye it all became so beautiful to me...

If it were really like that then it wouldn't be like this...for any of us.

Oh, how I've walked this white line
So many times before
What a feeble attempt
Just to feel alive

Emerson

I'm happy with this album consuming the space in my mind that is usually kept free for pointless shenanigans.

Agreed

You always have a reason--and usually, a pretty good one--

for doing what you are doing and choosing what you are

choosing. Be careful not to convince yourself that you are

doing something against your will. Such a thing is impossible.



Therefore, be honest with yourself as to why you are choosing

to do a particular thing. Then, do it gladly, knowing that you

are always getting to do what you want. The statement "I have

no choice" is a lie. You can choose. You simply do not prefer

the alternatives available to you, for whatever reason. So you

select the outcome that you most prefer.