Could life be any better :) It's bloody amazing!!!!!!!!!

I believe that people can change with all my heart I truly do but at the same time, I believe you can see the outcome of this change in how the person reacts to their own experiences. All I am saying is never believe the "hype" of a person until you see their change with your own eyes and feel their change inside your heart.

I haven't been around here for a while but I am super excited to get back into writing, expressing and trying to promote positive thinking as I have been hit with a ginormous ball of inspiration this morning.

Rhonda Byrne = genius

"Many people don't know about the power of good feelings, and so their feelings are reactions or responses to what happens to them. They have put their feelings on automatic pilot instead of deliberately taking charge of them. When something good happens, they feel good. When something bad happens, they feel bad. They don't realize that their feelings are the cause of what is happening to them. As they react with negative feelings to something that has happened, they give out more negative feelings, and they receive back more negative circumstances. They become trapped in a cycle by their own feelings. Their life goes around and around in circles not getting anywhere, like a hamster on a wheel, because they don't realize that to change their life, they must change their feeling frequency!"

Where to go from here?

I've been wanting to know all year.

Lack of direction is awful.

Just completed a quiz and here is what I got... As a risk-lover with a lot of energy, you're a natural entrepreneur. You'll be happiest if you change jobs every so often and travel extensively. Movement is what keeps you going.

Call me mentally insane after you read what I am about to write but I despise the concept of work and cannot for the life of me understand why it plays such an immense part in our lives. All my life I've searched for answers only to find more questions. I wish I could just wake up each day only to spend it with the people I care most about. I hate that life is simply about waking up each day only to work to make more money to fuel expenses that most of the time we don't need. I wish I could spend every minute of every day seeking beauty and living it over and over again. Why is life just about working so that we can obtain things? I'm not complaining because I am one to appreciate these "things" but I just don't feel satisfied waking up every day with the realization that this is what all of our lives are. Why is everything around me a normality when inside I feel it to be wrong? I just don't get it and everyone I talk to either tells me to just accept what is, or walks away from the conversation. I feel like something is missing when I really delve into the so-called meaning of life and what we were put on this planet to do.

Bullet for my valentine

= perfect comfort on a Friday night.

I'm a writer. I'm a fighter. I'm a creator.

I'm on an important mission

I am going to start believing in fairy tales again because it has been a while.

What kind of world is it we live in where equality is non-existent? Or more importantly, what kind of world is it we live in where the people in charge are empty, selfish and manipulative?

Today at work I got "told off" by a manager merely because he didn't like me voicing my opinion or sticking up for myself or hey you aren't going to believe this, but he didn't like me disagreeing with him. He simply told me "if you can't do what you're supposed to do then we will put you somewhere else". How's that for nearly 6 years of loyal service to a company. I was shocked, I didn't know we lived in a world where a conversation is only single sided. I had no fucking idea that one person's opinion WAS THE ONE AND ONLY RIGHT AND VALID OPINION WORTH STATING. I myself have no first hand managerial experience however, I believe listening and understanding are two valid qualities that are mandatory to this position. I daily look around at the retail store I work in and see corruption and unjust behaviours, wish I could name names but no they'd gladly have me fired in half a heartbeat. Managers walk around draining out the negativity of ANY given scenario, the real and the ones they have created in their ever-so diligent minds of theirs, and they bring these negative situations to the surface. Not once has one of the group of managers I whole heartedly am referring to said "hey great job" or any positive phrase in all the time I have known them. All that comes out of their mouths is garbage and the staff below them act as trash cans.

I don't understand how these people get so high up, actually I do and that is what angers me because I've seen it with my own eyes. One minute they are rudely putting down a 16 year old and ordering them around and oh hey let's turn the corner and there we see the store manager. Wouldn't you love to see how quickly their attitudes change, how fast their façade is built. It's pathetic. Especially when you see it coming from a manager under the age of 25. How can someone be poisoned at such a young age. Every time I witness these change of events attitude wise, I start to think of the quote "A person who is nice to you but not nice to the waiter is not a nice person," or something rather. If you live your life by this quote it's amazing how different people will become in your eyes.

I just feel, how a person treats those below them technically speaking in a work hierarchy really reflects upon who they are as a person and their values. If they do not respect you or treat you as you deserve to be treated then they do not value your existence and that is not right and unjust. It makes me sick to know this goes on everyday, all over the world.

Fuck "authority" thinking they are so damn important ordering people around, belittling them in order to feel some false sense of superiority, I'm sure that they lack in their beds.

I honestly wish I had someone beside me to punch me in the face, or even just a direct slap would suffice, each time my mind drifted to the world of negativity and self pity. For now I think I'll resort to coffee because for whatever reason it seems to wake me up physically AND mentally.

I've most likely posted this before

"The only real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes." Inspires the hell out of me.

Today has been a very big eye opener. I have seen what money and greed can do to someone and I refuse to ever sell my soul to work for anyone like this. I don't need money enough to work at a negative workplace run by a negative man which will only cause me unhappiness. It simply isn't worth it, especially because my current two jobs come with quite a bit of happiness. I don't care if I can't afford to buy new clothes every week, or if I can't afford to travel anywhere for more than a couple of nights. I am happy and that's all that matters. Life is about being happy in every situation regardless of what you own or where you are, those things are a bonus. But to give up my sense of happiness and satisfaction for "things" that are proven to be ever so temporary, that would be the end of me. I don't care if I have a million dollars or one dollar in my fucking bank account. I should feel the same amount of happiness because happiness is internal. When you realize you don't need things from the external world to fulfil your life or to identify yourself with then you won't go searching for situations to put yourself in which will continue to fossil this concept. All I need is my health, people who inspire me, and enough money to get me through the day and to provide myself with such "luxuries" like eating out or going on an exciting day trip and I will be happy. Even if I was living on the street and I know it's easy to say now but honestly I never want to turn into someone who has connected their will to live with their ability to make more and more money. LIFE IS NOT JUST ABOUT WORKING. I can't handle people who live like this. I don't understand the whole "my life will be better when I buy this or go here or have x amount of money or get this job". I really don't understand buying happiness I'll tell you that now.

Last night I dreamt I was flying. Check this out...

If you are flying with ease and are enjoying the scene and landscape below, then it suggests that you are on top of a situation. You have risen above something. It may also mean that you have gained a new and different perspective on things. Flying dreams and the ability to control your flight is representative of your own personal sense of power.

Do you resent what you are doing? It may be your job, or you may have agreed to do something and are doing it, but part of you resents and resists it. Are you carrying unspoken resentment towards a person close to you? Do you realize that the energy you thus emanate is so harmful in it's effects that you are in fact contaminating yourself as well as those around you? Have a good look inside. Is there even the slightest trace of resentment, unwillingness? If there is, observe it on both the mental and the emotional levels. What thoughts is your mind creating around this situation? Then look at the emotion, which is the body's reaction to those thoughts. Feel the emotion. Does it feel pleasant or unpleasant? Is it an energy that you would actually choose to have inside you? Do you have a choice?

Maybe you are being taken advantage of, maybe the activity you are engaged in is tedious, maybe someone close to you is dishonest, irritating, or unconscious, but all this is irrelevant. Whether your thoughts and emotions about this situation are justified or not makes no difference. The fact is that you are resisting what is. You are making the present moment into an enemy. You are creating unhappiness, conflict between the inner and the outer. Your unhappiness is polluting not only your own inner being and those around you but also the collective human psyche of which you are an inseparable part. The pollution of the planet is only an outward reflection of an inner psychic pollution: millions of unconscious individuals not taking responsibility for their inner space.

Either stop what you are doing, speak to the person concerned and express fully what you feel, or drop the negativity that your mind has created around the situation that serves no purpose whatsoever except to strengthen a false sense of self. Recognizing it's futility is important. Negativity is never the optimum way of dealing with any situation. In fact, in most cases it keeps you stuck in it, blocking real change. Anything that is done with negative energy will become contaminated by it and in time give rise to more pain, more unhappiness. Furthermore, any negative inner stage is contagious: Unhappiness spreads more easily than a physical disease. Through the law of resonance, it triggers and feeds latent negativity in others, unless they are immune -that is highly conscious.

Are you polluting the world or cleaning up the mess? You are responsible for your inner space; nobody else is, just as you are responsible for the planet. As within, so without: If humans clear inner pollution, then will also cease to create outer pollution.

-Eckhart Tolle

It's not what others think.It's having to live with yourself and being able to look yourself in the eyes and say you're proud of the person you're becoming.

All people should ever want from others is PURE HAPPINESS, LOVE AND LIGHT

It's crazy, my whole entire life I have rattled my brain dealing with the concept of solitude and what it truly feels like to be alone. I spent many sleepless nights battling this idea, the inept feeling of pure loneliness as a teenager that it nearly became the death of me. As I grew I began to let it go and created a sort of coven so to speak of friends who eliminated this feeling for a while. Honestly, I would still ponder that idea if it weren't for the spiritual teachings that have been brought forward to me. However, although I am not alone, I still feel a kind of segregation which divides me from many. It's crazy to say that ever since I picked up and Eckhart Tolle book that my whole entire perceptions were met and fulfilled. I have never felt the intense superstition that somehow a book was written solely for my learning. This book has really opened my eyes and confirmed the idea of pure consciousness. Just by recognizing everything this book refers to about unconscious living and ego control is an uncanny experience. But that's their learning so who am I to judge. You can't take what people do in THEIR lives personally, my mum has always told me that. Just as how you don't owe anyone an explanation. Something that has really stuck into my mind is the fact that you can't always please people, there will always be an unhappy soldier in the battle so why not do what is right for you and be happy in the process of living.

I feel obliged to make the obvious comment that we are not here to please others. I don't give a shit about what anyone else is doing so why the hell should they be focusing so much of their precious time on me? I do not appreciate it when people project their own insecurities upon me, and create a kind of fantasy reality as to how I have been living MY life (they forget that part because apparently they have so much to say about someone else's life because their's is perfecto). I am here to make a difference and to always be a good loving person full of light. Everything that I do will always be out of love. If they can't see that then they are clearly blind to me, and they don't know me. You'd be surprised how many people who are supposedly supposed to care about me don't know the first thing about me or how I live my life. I would NEVER purposely do anything to hurt anyone, even someone I COMPLETELY did not like. I can't even use the word hate because I feel bad. Here I go explaining myself, I suppose I am offering these words as a solution to any negative thoughts, not an undeserved explanation. I will always work towards bettering my life and growing as a person in every dimension of my being. More so, I will consciously decide to leave all negativity behind, and if for some reason I am feeling down, I will continue to persevere. I don't know if many people contemplate about what they are doing on this planet but I think about it every fucking day. I try to do something good each day, and I have been blessed to have a mum who has taught me so much about self respect, pride and staying true to myself that I will choose to dictate my life, not anyone else. If people decide that isn't good enough for them then so be it. I can read people's energies and I know when people have a problem with me, to be honest I don't care.

I can see how a good mood effects people, for better or worse. A good mood is contagious, and sometimes when a person is lost they can't handle it. They can't handle the light when they're stuck in a place so dark. It disappoints me to think that they have lowered themselves to that level. Especially people you felt you could count on entirely. It's true when they say "the only person you can rely on is yourself". Mum has always taught me to stay true to myself and hell why should someone change to suit another person. We aren't living their lives. Lately I have found myself feeling so disappointed with people that I let it consume me at some stage. WRONG DECISION THERE. We were all put on this planet to make a difference and I only do things that will help me grow and keep me fresh, oh so happy as Larry. I have no idea why I would ever suddenly be classified as a villain for staying true to how I feel I should live my life.

I don't know why I felt the need to express this idea but I just feel like there are so many people out there who are not being true to who they are and are not listening to what their true desires. They need to stand up for their beliefs and stand up for who they are. Just because the majority of people are doing things a certain way, does NOT mean it is necessarily the right way. If people refuse to like me for any reason, they are obviously the ones with the issues because from the bottom of my heart I am telling you all now that I come from a place of light and love.

I write these words in hope of activating a kind of spark in my reader because the time that we waste here thinking so negatively, is time we could have spent changing lives, making a difference to people and just plain and simply being happy.This has always been my mission and I plan to exceed it to its limit regardless of how many times people put me down or for some god forsaken reason have some kind of FANTASTIC comment to spread about me.

True love does not come with conditions. Whether it'd be directed to a partner, family member or friend, the love shared should be unconditional.

Victim or Creator?

How to vanquish your evil

There is so much dark in this world trying to infect us. It lingers in our thoughts, but more importantly our minds. It's incredible how fast it spreads and takes over our whole entire being, our essence and our persona. All it takes is one negative thought to derive from one situation/event/relationship/person and then BAM the disease is running through us. Good news folks, this disease has a cure. The negativity that has situated itself right beside you and has given itself the deceptive title of a "friend" can be destroyed. A positive thought is the most powerful destroyer of all evils because as you all already know, good most definitely triumphs over evil. When you fall down, the crystal blue sky can look a mile away, however once you make that conscious decision to shoot up nothing can stop you. It's all about being aware of your reality, aware of your mind, aware of your thoughts because these things have the power to end you. These things have the power to shape your existence and to corrupt your awareness. They want to control you and they want to infect you. These corruptions are found in your every day lives my friends. All it takes is for an uneasy feeling to multiple itself times a hundred and there you sit adding more negatives to the list of "things you hate about your life". I've said it before and I'll say it countlessly: If you focus on the negatives that's what you will bring into your life. If you focus on the positive, your life will feel limitless. Who wants to watch a movie about a person who relentlessly fails and continues to drown themselves in their self pity without making a single perserveric (that's right I just created a word) change towards the better. Ahhh let me tell you that now...one...two...three NO ONE. We all want to live successful lives. Regardless of what people say, they don't actually want to be miserably depressed, they have created a sanctuary of familiarity around their negativity which is why they refuse to evacuate it. Come on now, we want to see movies about people who have risen against all odds when no one would've expected it. We all want to be victorious and the only way to bring said notion into our lives is to THINK POSITIVE because nothing is more powerful than the power to CHOOSE one's thoughts.

"The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly — you usually don’t use it at all. It uses you. This is the disease. You believe that you are your mind. This is the delusion. The instrument has taken you over."

Oh Neil you've done it again!

What we call “work” can, and should, be a joy. It can be that for you beginning now—no matter what you are doing.
Simply see the daily work of your hands as the pathway to where you want to be. Then, be grateful that life has given you this path.

There is something that this band does to me that no other can do.

I am actually the luckiest person alive.

One of my stand out personality traits, or I'd probably particularly call this a character trait, anyway is not being able to accept things. It doesn't happen with everything, sometimes not even with big occurrences. Sometimes someone in my life could speak to me a certain way and I have trouble accepting and understanding how they could have that tone or attitude with me. It's stupid but it comes out of habit and
I sometimes like to attach the "I can't help how I feel" cop-out statement to each of my feelings whenever I have trouble accepting that in life things just happen. It's how you deal with them that provokes you to show some strength and courage forcing
you to either hold on to your disappointment or allowing you to decide to let go. Even this past week I've been battling with the idea that I've lost the passions I used to hold close to me or I didn't necessarily have a certain niche which is bullshit. One of my best friends said to me last night that writing was my niche and I replied with "but I haven't published anything" ,
which in fact is also an incorrect statement. She said "what about those musicians that aren't famous, does that mean they are any less talented?". How wise is this girl I thought and you know, I came to realize that I have come to value my
current jobs a little less than I should because they weren't the jobs I had idolized.
It's funny how we don't stop to think about the fact that we're on
a journey towards something and not everything is going to run smoothly and how you handle these not so smooth occurrences is a direct reflection on your outlook and what you believe in. All I know is that everything is a blessing and that we as people have the power to live through anything as long as we continue to persevere.

Life is about staying true to yourself and doing things because YOU want to not because you think other people want you to. Life isn't about doing things to make friends, it's about doing things to make a difference.

If you think that love is what you want, you will go searching for it all over the place. If you think love is what you are, you will go sharing it all over the place. The second approach will cause you to find what the searching will never reveal.



Yet you cannot give love in order to get it. Doing that is as much as saying you do not now have it. And that statement will, of course, be your reality. No, you must give love because you have it to give. In this will you experience your own possession of it.

I can't wait to jump out of a plane again!!!!!

"One of the secrets of a long and fruitful life is to forgive everybody everything every night before you go to bed."

-Bernard Baruch

"Life is too short to spend your precious time trying to convince a person who wants to live in gloom and doom otherwise. Give lifting that person your best shot, but don't hang around long enough for his or her bad attitude to pull you down. Instead, surround yourself with optimistic people."

-Zig Ziglar

"If you’re dedicated, if it’s something that lives and breathes in your heart, then you've simply got to go ahead and do it."

Rodney Crowell

LOUD MUSIC
FALLING IN LOVE
THE OCEAN
FOOD

Seriously my favorite things, in no particular order I might add.

Just before, a good seven minutes ago I turned into one of those people publicly cursing at an inanimate object. I'll set up the scenario for you; I was trying to buy a train ticket in the midst of the train approaching at my platform. The thing was though that the ticket machine wasn't accepting any of my money and then it deselected my ticket proposal and I was the person holding up the "traffic" behind me full of people. This was all because of my attitude towards the helpless ticket machine that I instantaneously despised. 

I made my train and straight away thought about how silly I was to get all worked up over a ticket machine or even over potentially being late. Very unlike me to ever ponder such pointless things. I'm lucky to be awake and alive.
Sometimes when your head tries to sway you away from these thoughts it's easy for you to get all caught up in other pointless ones. 

Oh that Neil Donald Walsh...

You need not be concerned about money. Be concerned, instead, about joy.

How much joy are you experiencing in this moment? How much joy are you bringing to this moment? The joy you experience will be the joy you bring. If you are waiting for joy to be brought to you, you do not understand what you are doing here. And if you think that joy has anything to do with money, you really do not understand what you are doing here.

There is a person waiting right now, right this very minute, for you to uplift them. Do that...and you will be rich.

Wake up each day and just think about how lucky you are to be alive :)

Have hope and you will never be disappointed.

A few weeks ago I started watching a movie about a woman who finds out she only has a few months left to live.

For the past week I've been entertaining this exact thought and I feel it has really changed my attitude towards people and the way I carry out my days. If you really think about that reality and put yourself in her position it'll open up your mind to a whole new world for you to consider.

Start imagining...

MCR will always own my soul.

Beautiful Day

Andrew Bolt - fascinating/Julian Assange - heroic

It's been good to have some alone time this week. Usually my nights consist of catching up with friends or family I haven't seen in a while because they all work during the day so it's the only available time for us. This week has been a little different though. I've had a couple of nights to really regurgitate my restlessness and it's been great to just relax alone. Usually I'd feel bad doing this but sometimes I need a break from everyone. Sometimes I just want to catch up with myself because I swear it feels like it's been months. I think it's important to really take some time out otherwise you'll go crazy living your life continually fuelled by the mere purpose of pleasing everyone else. If you feel like staying home and reading, watching tv, eating or even just sitting in sheer silence then you are entitled to it. I always notice people (myself included) thinking that they HAVE to do this or that otherwise this person or that person won't be happy. What about your happiness?

"Kahlil Gibran once wrote; 'You're reason and your passion are the rudder.. and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burn to it’s own destruction.'"

There's always someone worse off than you.

There's always a situation you could be stuck in that could be worse.

You could always be feeling worse than you are now.

Remember that and live by it.