Words can't express how beautiful this is

Damn computer

'Only one person is worth crying over, and they won't make you cry'

Placebo

Happy You're Gone

Breathe me every time you close your eyes
Taste me every time you cry
This memory will fade away and die
Just for today, breathe me and say goodbye

How many times? How many times?
Now I can't look you in the eye
Now I can't look you in the eye
How many times? How many times?
Now I can't look you in the eye

See me, in the eyes of another's child
Turn away, when you see me walking by
Once in a while
This melody will fade away and die
Just for today, breathe me and say goodbye

How many times? How many times?
Now I can't look you in the eye
Now I can't look you in the eye
How many times? How many times?
Now I can't look you in the eye

And I don't even want to try
My my
'Cause every word from you is a lie
My my

How many times? How many times?
Now I can't look you in the eye
Now I can't look you in the eye
How many times? How many times?
Now I can't look you in the eye

Some underoath lyrics

From the moment that you entered my life
My whole outlook on love would change

You brought out a happiness I didn't even know I had,
And now you've gone, leaving without a goodbye...

Today

Marks the start of one highly anticipated week :)

Monday: Placebo at Festival Hall
Wednesday: The almost
Thursday: HIM, then next
Friday: SOUNDWAVE!!!!!

I was going through old photos from soundwave last night and it made me realize how much things have changed from this time last year.

Speak in tongues, placebo

Don't let them have their way
Don't let them have their way
You're beautiful and so blasé
So please don't let them have their way
Don't fall back into the decay
There is no law we must obey
So please don't let them have their way
Don't give in to yesterday

We can build a new tomorrow, today
We can build a new tomorrow, today
We can build a new tomorrow, today
We can build a new tomorrow, today

So I went through Elza's postsecret book...

I will NEVER understand

Why people are so hypocritical. I'm extremely defiant today.

Everybody loves Raymond

Ray talking about a mum from school's fake boobs;

'They weren't fake...they were real. If they fell down in a forest they would make a sound'.

Wow

A Day To Remember - Heartless.

For once my eyes are open to you, and everything you've said.
For once your web of lies is in the open.
I gave you everything I had, until I had nothing left.
Now still you act as if I'm just a burden.
I've finally let go. Let go, let go.

Stay silent at least for now, and let me move on.
'Cause I'm so done playing these games with my heart
I've been around the world and back for you, and now its time to choose.

I've been swallowed by this wreck that you call your life.
I'm damaged from the inside. I've been broken.
Don't threaten me with what you think I feel.
If you could read my mind you'd be in tears.

I'm sick of your excuses you hold above me.
I've finally come to terms with what I am.
I'm nothing in your eyes, and this will not change.
I'm living in a dream.

Stay silent at least for now, and let me move on.
'Cause I'm so done playing these games with my heart
I've been around the world and back for you, and now its time to choose.

And I'll close my eyes, and dream of a better time
when I'll be finally past this and I'll be happy on my own.
I've done all I can, and I've still been cast aside.
All I ever wanted to be was be the one who would wipe those tears from your eyes.
But I guess I'll play second best, to a world that will never care about you.
You'll never understand you're just another pretty face
You'll tell me that you care, and then run straight back to him.
I can hear your voice of treason from a mile away.

You never did know how to whisper.

You're such a liar. Tell me the truth.
You're such a liar. Tell me the truth.
You're such a liar. Tell me the truth.
Do the world a favor, stop cutting your arms, and slit your throat.

A Day To Remember - The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle

I've learned to let go
Come on

Here's a middle finger
Coming straight from oca-l-a
I appreciate your judgement
it's proved that I can't trust a word you say
those must be some pair of binoculars
that you see every move I make
so I'll never be a liar
but you'll always be two-faced

You'll get what's coming to you
You're blinded by your instincts
I'm not your fucking game
I'm not so easily beat

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made
and I can't believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I've got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We're leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

I'll rip that scandalous bitch in two
We'll bring the noise

Try to pretend that I never even knew your name
'cause everything you are disgusts me
(Too bad I can't turn back time)
So I wouldn't be here
what I'd give for you to disappear
so tell me girly how's your edge?

You've got nothing better to do
I know why you can't see straight
I thought you were better than this
but you're just like everyone else

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made
and I can't believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I've got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We're leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends

Get low
Now I know who my friends are
I'm never coming home



I think I'm in love with a day to remember right now!!

Daybreakers

I forgot to HIGHLY RECOMMEND this movie when I saw it a few weeks back.



If you're into vampire films, this movie kills them all (in a good way of course!)

Beautiful

A lesson well learnt

Today at work a blind lady purposely made me feel guilty.
She pretty much used the fact that she was 'legally blind' as a way to make me feel bad about something at work that I had no control over. At first I fell for it, immediately feeling sorry for her but then one of my managers came up to me and filled me in on what she was really about. Apparently she comes into work all the time being rude and demanding, and shoving her apparent 'blindness' in everyone's face. My manager was saying how no one can stand her because she continuously abuses the workers and that one of my other managers can't even look at her. I said to my manager that I thought it was ridiculous that someone would act that way and especially if her vision is impaired, wouldn't that make her a better person? Wouldn't that make her be above all that abuse? Apparently not.

I learned a few months back that even though people go through some hard times, they aren't always better people for it. Their pain hasn't taught them to see life differently, or to treat others with respect. Some people just simply don't change for the better and you should never assume that they have because you are probably fooling yourself. I learned not to have so much faith in people a few months back and gave up expecting the best in people because that can only lead to disappointment.

Work is soon

There are so many unsent texts in my phone...I have no idea who they are even addressed to.

Some just do, as they do

Some people just anger me. I find myself biting my tongue a lot of the time because I realize they aren't even worth my anger. That doesn't stop me from blogging about it. I just don't understand how someone can be so selfish where they get to the point of manipulation and deceit. How is that fair? How is that just? How are there just plain and simple evil people out walking this earth there that get away with shit every day. Things that we all universally consider to be wrong.

I used to wonder all these things until someone pointed out to me another possibility. What if all the things we do in this life, good and bad, equal up to something much more when we die. I really do believe that the kind of person that you choose to be in this world has a strong influence on the kind of place that you will be lead to after your time here is over. I'm not talking about heaven and hell, what I'm simply saying is that I don't believe that all your actions go unnoticed. You might want to look at this as karma if you don't really understand what I'm saying.

I strongly believe that you will be rewarded for all the good you have done, and punished for all the bad at some stage, life or death, and the person you are will never go unnoticed. With that at the back of my mind, I'm slowly learning to be a better person. Not that I was ever evil or manipulative to begin with but hey, we can always be better people in this world.

What are you truly afraid of?

I went to get a blood test today. I've been dreading the simple thought of it for a couple of weeks now and when the moment finally came I proved to myself that my fear was stronger than the concept of getting a needle itself.
We can live in our heads a lot of the time which causes us to kind of exaggerate things I guess, not always, but sometimes. The thought of getting a blood test was more scary to me than the act and that's my fault. Fear really doesn't exist unless you let it and unless you make it come to life. It's your choice really. What are you truly afraid of?

I don't have to pretend anymore

This poem is cliche but very true, definitely gets the message across.


life is like a rollercoaster.
there are times when you
feel really excited going
to the top and there
are also times when
you want to scream
real loud just as you
sliding down.

there will be laughter there
will be love there
will be
hatred and there will
also be tears.

there are times when
you feel alone
and lost.
but there are also times
where you feel thankful
and blessed because you’re
surrounded with so
many good friends,
family, and wonderful
people.

as the day goes by you
finally realized that
so many things have
happened. some
are good while others
maybe bad.

when you remember all the joy
and all the laughter,
you want to treasure
that warm feeling inside
forever and for always.
but when you remember all
the sadness and all
the tears, you want to forget
it all and act as if it
never happened.

you regret why it has to
happen. why it has
to be you and not
someone else.

to forgive an accept
your dark past is as important as
to treasure the beautiful
memories you’ve collected.
regret won’t take you
back there and hate
won’t fix that.

let go.

and then whenever you
remember all the things
you’ve been through
you’ll be smiling.

because you’ve
let your balloon
fly high into
the
sky.

Today

Was definitely the start of a new life.

It's about

not letting people walk all over you & you being treated the way you deserve to be treated.

Until morning

True that

'People often disregard their most inspired ideas and settle for whatever seems reasonable, or whatever comes their way.'

I'm so awake

and this is going to be a long night...in a good kind of way.

I like this

2:28 am

It's kind of late, I have to be up for work in about 5 hours and I'm dreading it. I don't want to sleep because the sooner I sleep then the sooner it is tomorrow and I'm somewhat satisfied with this present moment. Everyone is asleep, my house is dead quiet. All I can hear are the thoughts relentlessly lingering in my mind. I wonder what it would be like if we didn't have that one voice guiding us through our contemplations. Anyway I don't even know what I'm going on about right now or where my mind is drifting to. I'm thinking about so much. As usual, the past has made an appearance about 30 or more times today. My eyes really hurt and I kind of feel like staying up all night and dnming with someone about life, mainly it's hard times because I need some inspiration. I need to think about the tragic for the pleasant to exist but it needs to be done in a way that leaves me feeling grateful and optimistic not hopeless. This probably makes zero sense. I should probably sleep, okay goodnight.

There's eyeliner in my eyes and it really hurts

It's been so hard for me to let go of the past, so hard for me to try and pretend that I don't feel a certain way but today that kind of changed. Today something happened that made me realize that you really aren't that great for me and that I'm just simply holding onto false memories that are to never repeat themselves. Today, for the first time in a while, I genuinely didn't miss you.

Tell me when this song is gonna end

I feel like being more private, from everyone.

Let me personalize this

One day

When one day comes, I will welcome it with open arms.

Every action in this world will bear a consequence

Ask yourself why.

IT'S FEBRUARY!!

Welcome fresh new month, I hope it's a good one :)