This photo would be better if it had the word 'bitch' in the bottom right corner. Adds some spice.

"When we first started out I had a really big issue and a lot of my loved ones had a really big issue with the fact that I was totally in pain up there and there was a time when I tried to hurt myself off stage, but I got over that. Like, you should never want to hurt yourself. You should love yourself. Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself and become a new person and I think that that is going to be a lot of what the next record is about, not to plug it or anything. Like, it's going to talk about dying and coming back to become what you totally want to become. We are all becoming what we want to become."

- Gerard Way

There's no such thing as being "not good enough" or "not strong enough" for something or someone, those statements are the biggest cop-outs I have ever heard. It's your choice how determined you are to persevere or to keep persisting. It's up to you to try to be better to suit your ideals or standards. It's wrong to go by someone else's. You control your own happiness. I completely and entirely know that now and it is simply beautiful :)

Lesson # 1840348

It's wonderful how someone you've never met before has the capacity to make your day. Today at work I exchanged a few casual words with a friendly lady. We'll probably never speak again, or meet again for that matter, but she was one of the nicest people I've ever met and I haven't heard words like that directed to me with sincerity for a long time.
Thank you, you brightened my day :)

Magic

Turn it up full blast now!

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'What would happen if you gave love instead of seeking it?'

October tunes

1. Lady Of The Sunshine - Kings Black Magic
2. Brand New - Jesus
3. Bright Eyes - Method Acting
4. Birds Of Tokyo - Plans
5. Augustana - Twenty Years
6. Phoenix - Lisztomania
7. Angus & Julia Stone - Silver Coin

“Don’t be amazed if you see my eyes always wandering. In fact, this is my way of reading, and it is only in this way that reading proves fruitful for me. If a book truly interests me, I cannot follow it for more than a few lines before my mind, having seized on a thought that the text suggests to it, or a feeling, or a question, or an image, goes off on a tangent and springs from thought to thought, from image to image, in an itinerary of reasonings and fantasies that I feel the need to pursue to the end, moving away from the book until I have lost sight of it. The stimulus of reading is indispensable to me, and of meaty reading, even if, of every book, I manage to read no more than a few pages. But those few pages already enclose for me whole universes, which I can never exhaust.”

You are what you strive for. Outside of everything, every person, every concept, every object. You are yourself at your truest form when you are stripped of these things. I think we sometimes get too caught up in trying to define ourselves with other people or things but they don't make up who we really are. Have you ever stopped to think about what makes you who you are without these things? Do you even know yourself well enough? Have you lost your passions in the midst of living and not focusing on yourself? I know I did for a while. Do you ever think about what would happen if these things ceased, where would you be?

New addition to my window ledge.

These bright lights hitting your eyelids; a hurricane within your thoughts.

I wonder what an empty mind would sound like?

Keep on telling me that time is no enemy
A worthless struggle to step back
And reconceive

...stop listening to your mind. You will not find the truth there. You may find the answer, but it will not be the truth unless it coincides with the answer in your heart.

Today at uni I sat in the cafeteria and did some writing. It was really peaceful seeing people come and go in their groups happily. It was nice to see some smiles. Lately I've been finding solace in my solitude. It's been comforting to be away from everyone. It sometimes feels like I'm a million miles away from everything. Sometimes it's as if I'm living in a completely different universe, it's like I'm staring at a different night sky.
I like talking to strangers because they don't know anything about me. They don't ask me the same half hearted questions. They have no personalized restrictions and they don't tippy toe around anything.

Here's half a page from my notebook.

I love the feeling of seeing an incredible live band. I love how for that 1 hour or however long, the outside world only exists in specs and all of your worries and troubles have faded for that time period. Everything is suddenly okay.
You are free.

Goodbye for now blogger.

I can't stop thinking about you.

There are beautiful people out there who shed true kindness from their hearts not from their minds.
I've been doubting it lately but I feel so thankful and lucky right now.

Thank God for October.